Well, maybe not today, another Sunday filled with rain. I slept through another fierce thunderstorm last night, so I have been told...that's too bad...storms are exciting.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that summer is getting very close. As of this coming Friday, minus a couple days during training, and every weekend, I will be at camp for the summer! Whoo hoo! It's already here. I need to get my act together! :) Sometimes I take camp things too lightly because I'm such a pro that I don't have to prepare or think so hard about things where as people who are coming for their first summer are all nervous and excited as can be! I'm excited, but it's a different excitement than I have had any previous summer. It's weird. This morning in church the pastor did a "hello" thing like, "greet the person next to you and tell them what you like to do in the summer". I leaned over to Jean, the keyboard player, and was like, "well, I don't know much different from a summer at camp now because this is the 5th summer I will be doing that...so, I guess you could say that's what I like to do...???" I stopped and was like, "whoa, dude, this is my 5th summer, I DON'T know anything different DO I? Wow!" Yet every summer is SO different, it's amazing.
That's enough for now...don't worry, I'll be sure to type plenty about camp through out the summer.
I wrote a song dedicated to this summer...hopefully it will be recorded soon....
Summer Prayer
You’ve brought me here
To be Your servant
And I know
I’ll be blessed too
I give my time
I give my hands
Let them see You
May they choose You
There’s no greater love than what You gave to me
I’ll share what You did up on Calvary’s tree
I want to be Christ-like and loving each day
To each child that hears everything that I say
Lord work in me,
Complete me
Until You return
Your grace is sufficient
To endure the race
And Your Joy
Sustains my life
I’m not perfect
Don’t know all the answers
So let them see You
May they choose You
The moments of laughter of joy and of pain
Are memories made in the sunshine or rain
I’ve witnessed Your mercy and sovereignty
I thank You Lord Jesus for reigning in me
Lord work in me,
Complete me
Until You return
Sunday, May 30, 2004
Friday, May 28, 2004
Thursday, May 27, 2004
all about me
Well, I don't have anything in my profile (oh wait, with this template I don't have a profile) in case anyone wants to learn more about me. And I was reading blogs and clicking on links to other people's, to someone else, (totally weird!) and I saw this survey thing on some girl's that I do not know. I have refused to do surveys through email anymore so...here is this one documented forever....it only has about a bazillion questions....here goes...
1. NAME: Sara Elizabeth Lightbody
2. WHO WERE YOU NAMED AFTER? Sara(i) in the Bible...I was supposed to be named Kari, don't know why...actually, my brother was supposed to be named Kari and I was supposed to be named Timothy, then both of us turned out to be the other sex so my parents totally changed their minds....just think if I didn't have my name....
3. SCHOOL: I went to...RoseHill preschool, Chippewa Kindergarten, Snail Lake Elementary, Chippewa Middle (yes, the same one as K), Mounds View High, and Bethel College (yes, COLLEGE, not UNIVERSITY)
4. MASCOT: MV Mustangs and Bethel Royals
5. NICKNAME(s): oh goodness....lightsnack, lightsmack, smackbody, rockbody, like-my-body, light-a-body, ligsar, they keep on coming...
6. BIRTHDAY: Dec. 4, 1979
7. ZODIAC SIGN: um, saggitarius, but i don't care
8. GRADE: 18th, if you were to keep counting, but I am not in school
9. AVERAGE: GPA? not telling
10. HEIGHT: 5'6"
11. SHOE SIZE: 9
12. EYE COLOR: hazel green
13. HAIR COLOR: hahaha....I think the best I can describe it is goldish brown..?? somewhat blonde
14. HOMETOWN: Shoreview/Arden Hills, MN
15. SIBLINGS: my big bro Dave who just turned 29
16. LAST CDs YOU BOUGHT: BarlowGirl, Jeremy Camp- the Worship Project
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATER: 13 Going on 30
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: Chasing Liberty and Big Fish (2nd one way good, 1st, way bad!)
19. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE LINE/SCENE OF THAT MOVIE? I don't remember that until I have seen it at least more than once
20. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: I don't know anymore
21. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATH?: until you get to Calculus, yeah
22. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MUSICALS?: who wants to take me to see Annie at the Chanhassen??? :)
23. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE BAND? OR ARE YOU IN IT BECAUSE ALL THE COOL KIDS ARE? OR ARE YOU *GASP* NOT IN IT AT ALL? AND IS THIS QUESTION TOO LONG?: This question is definitely too long. I was the biggest band nerd in high school. I was in it for a semester and a half in college, but that insane director we had made me play a crappy Bari Sax and then she made me cry...I opted to just stay in choir after that major frustration.
24. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH: as a matter of fact, no
25. DOES HE/SHE GIVE YOU HOT/COLD FEVER AND PUT YOU IN A COLD, COLD SWEAT?: what the heck?
26. DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT SONG THAT'S FROM?: um, no
27. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Julia Roberts, Jennifer Aniston, Julia Stiles
28. FAVORITE ACTOR: Matt Damon, Ashton Kutcher!
29. FAVORITE MOVIE: My Best Friend's Wedding
30. FAVORITE TV SHOW: Friends (watching it right now!)
31. FAVORITE THING TO DO ON WEEKEND: chill out and hang out, sleep in!!!, go on a road trip
32. FAVORITE COLOR: BLUE
33. FAVORITE HOCKEY TEAMS: Gophers
34. FAVORITE STORES: Old Navy, Target
35. FAVORITE SONG: Rhapsody in Blue...Jon Taylor will be playing it at my wedding
36. DO YOU DO ANY DRUGS?: no way
37. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST?: 200 some, I guess I am a "people person"
38. WHAT'S YOUR FAV. SPORT: volleyball, hockey, football (and when MN is in the playoffs, baseball and basketball)
39. ARE YOU ON ANY SPORTS TEAM?: not currently
40. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER?: as long as I can be
41. WHAT'S YOUR FAV. PLACE TO GO ON VACATION: if it's a vacation, anywhere....going to LA again this summer!!!!
42. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: no
43. IF YOU ARE A BOY, WHAT DO YOUR PANTS SAY?: n/a and what is that question talking about?
44. IF YOU ARE A GIRL, WHAT MAKEUP DO YOU WEAR?: I don't pay enough attention to answer that, so why should you?
45. HATS ON OPPOSITE SEX?: not all the time, but for sure
46. BEST NUMBER EVER: 5
47. WORST FEAR: actually, not so sure
48. FAVORITE DAY: Sunday
49. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: being loved
50. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: witnessing someone deny God and feeling powerless
51. BILL CLINTON?: grrrr....
52. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: when it happens to me, I will let you know
53. ABORTION: "Thou shalt not kill"
54. SMOKING: makes me sick
55. EATING DISORDERS: sad
56. JOHN S. ANDERSON: who?
57. ATHLETES: :)
58. MARILYN MANSON: ewwwwwwww
59. BOY BANDS: Adam, are you ever going to give me my BSB CD's back?
60. DEATH: "this world is not my home, I'm just a-passin' through, my treasures are laid out somewhere beyond the blue..."
61. SCHOOL: done!
62. TITANIC?: I enjoyed that flick :)
63. JERRY SPRINGER: oh boy...hahahaha
64. WISCONSIN: what the? I'm a MINNESOTA girl!
65. MAINE: i need to visit the east!!!!!
66. SCHOOL VIOLENCE: what is wrong with kids these days?
67. SURVIVOR: never watched it, sorry
68. CHEATING (on someone): sad
69. PRE-MARITAL SEX: absolutely NOT!
70. DO YOU HAVE A JOB?: praise Jesus, I do
71. WHAT COLLEGE DO YOU WANT TO GO TO?: already been there
72. WHERE WILL YOU LIVE: "Where He leads me, I will go"
73. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK: no
74. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING?: thank God, no
75. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO YOUR OWN SMELL?: what? I mean...yes....I sneeze all the time, sorry if it bothers you
76. THAT'S KIND OF WEIRD. the person who wrote these new questions is weird
77. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SSSSSSSSSSSSSSATAN?: grrr....
78. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ANGELS?: yeah dude
79. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS? yup, they came to America from another country, many of them illegally
80. DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
81. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?: YES!!!!!
82. WHAT DO YOU DO THAT MAKES YOUR FRIENDS MAD: I don't know. I'm perfect. Just kidding.
83. ARE YOU MAD AT ANY OF YOUR FRIENDS?: yeah, right
84. DO YOU HAVE ANY STUFFED ANIMALS?: tons...I collect pigs!
85. DO YOU HAVE ANY BAD HABITS?: yes, don't remind me....I'm chewing on a bitten finger nail right now!
86. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE JOKE/QUOTE/SONG LYRIC: "Sara spelled without an H was getting bored." "Teach me to know that I need You, simply because, Lord, I need You. Not cause I'm tired of what I do." a whole lot more....
87. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE HANGOUT: wherever my friends are
89. CRAIG KILBORNE OR LENO?: Leno, but isn't Kilborne the one from Minnesota...that's pretty cool
90. MTV or VH1: well, am I watching "I Love the 80's", "Behind the Music" or "Real World" :)
91. BIF NAKED OR KITTY: um, huh? no?
92. 70's SHOW OR FRIENDS: FRIENDS!!!!!!!
93. SIMPSONS OR FUTURAMA: Simpsons
94. 7TH HEAVEN OR DREW CAREY: 7th Heaven
95. DOOBIE BROTHERS OR STEVE MILLER BAND? neither, I was born in 1979, geesh
96. SHOES OR NO SHOES: flip-flops?
97. APPLES OR ORANGES: oranges
98. CHOCOLATES OR FLOWERS: depends on if I am hungry or just feeling loved....and the flowers stick around longer...but sometimes a girl just needs chocolate!
99. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE LOVE SONG? I need to know who is going to sing it to me, then I will let you know
100. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAK-UP SONG?: seriously, that's really sad
101. SILVER OR GOLD: don't really care
102. IF YOU COULD BE ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE WOULD YOU BE?: lots of places....California makes the list...Europe too
103. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN BETRAYED?: "forgive and FORGET"
104. HOW DO YOU PERSONALLY RATE YOUR BRAIN FROM 1-10? hahaha...who edited that one? I have my smart moments and my dumb ones, I don't know
105. WHEN IS YOUR CURFEW?: never ever had one!
106. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING OF AT THIS VERY MOMENT: Emily is almost home!!! But I can't go see her so I'm going to sit at home and do dumb stuff...well, maybe getting something done.
107. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE SONG "BAKARDI SLANG"?: I don't think I have heard it, but I am sure it is pretty dumb.
108. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?: no way dude, meat is good!..God provided animals for us to use them, be it for pets, work, beauty, research or food!
109. FAVORITE KINDS OF CLOTHES: comfy ones
110. THE LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED?: hmmm....voicemail, before that, Kelsi Bengtson and Applebee's
111. THE LAST TV SHOW YOU WATCHED: right now "Will and Grace" is on
HAVE YOU EVERs:
112. BEEN TO A CONCERT? did you forget who you are talking to?
113. BEEN ON A PLANE: yes
114. GONE SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN?: swimming no, but I have been in it in San Fran
115. FISHED: that certainly does not excite me, no
116. BEEN STOPPED BY A COP: um, well, I can't count that high...I think nine times for speeding alone
117. BEEN ACCUSED OF SHOPLIFTING: no. accused of a hit and run, yes
118. BEEN CAUGHT PARKING: say what?
119. HAVE YOU EVER GONE SHOP LIFTING: no
120. CRIED IN PUBLIC: yes
121. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: you betchya
122. FALLEN ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: oh dear
123. FALLEN ASLEEP WHILE EATING: why would I do that?
124. TRIED TO MOUTH WHAT SOMEONE WAS SAYING AS THEY SAID IT WITHOUT REALLY KNOWING WHAT THEY WERE GOING TO SAY? I don't know if I understand this question....
125. READ THE BIBLE: couldn't have my faith without it
126. CLIMBED A TREE: not recently
127. JOINED THE MILE HIGH CLUB: holy cow!
128. GONE SKIING: yeah, um, I fell on the bunny hill in 6th grade and haven't gone since...I'm afraid of hurting myself, especially since my entire income depends on full function of all of my limbs
129. RAN A MARATHON: um, ha, sure, right
130. FALLEN ASLEEP IN CLASS: only once or twice when there was a movie showing, and I was very tired....I think it is very rude and disrespectful
131. FALLEN ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: um, probably
132. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: I usually only make it till 3 at the latest...one time I did stay up all night, I crashed about 7 or 8 and then slept through the presentation I worked on cuz staying up made me sick
133. BEEN TO CAMP: BSC here I come!!!!
134. BEEN BITTEN BY AN ANIMAL?: well, yeah, but no serious flesh wound or anything
135. PLAYED SOCCER: yeah, not so good at it though
136. BEEN TO A MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL GAME: GO TWINS!!!! and I have been to San Diego and Anaheim....way fun!!
137. SEEN A PRO FOOTBALL GAME: GO VIKES!!! (on TV)
138. KISSED A GUY: that's personal info! ;)
139. GOT A DETENTION: I skipped school mornings in Junior High alot (yup, definitely not a morning person- for my entire life), and I scratched a guy and got it for that too.
140. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHOUT ORDERING ANYTHING: well, you see, I used to work at Perkins
141. EATEN SQUID: ewwwwwwww
142. EATEN FISH: like I said, ewwww
143. WISHED YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: um, no, not really
144. CHEATED ON HOMEWORK: NO! and it angered me when other people got the straight A's when I knew they were cheating, and I did honest work and did not do as well....grrr...
145. WANTED TO DIE: no
146. MET A CELEBRITY? a few, not so major ones...but remember that I might meet Britney Spears this summer? :)
147. RIDDEN IN A TAXI: yes...not so good experiences...thank God I have a car!
148. RIDDEN IN A POLICE CAR: ridden, no
149. RIDDEN A PONY: actually, a horse, not a pony...in Colorado!
150. BOUGHT A PONY FOR YOURSELF: cuz I can afford that? and have a place to keep it?
151. BOUGHT A PONY FOR SOMEONE ELSE: golly, these are dumb questions
152. WHY NOT: see past answer
153. DO YOU THINK YOUR MOM WOULD BUY YOU A PONY: seriously, stop with the pony
154. TOLD SOMEONE YOU LOVED THEM: rather often :)
155. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: yup
156. USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: yes...had to buy my plane ticket to LA with it too (I paid her back instantly)
157. BEEN SCARED TO GET A SHOT?: well...maybe a bit apprehensive
158. HAD TO GET BRACES?: praise Jesus, no, but I have had other recent not so fun tooth experiences
159. HAD TO BE IN THE HOSPITAL: nope
160. SHOPPED AT ABERCROMBIE FITCH: yes, I will admit...only for major sales
161. SHOPPED AT GAP: for sure
162. SHOPPED AT ZELLERS? what is that?
163. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: not so much :(
164. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: yes, and I was "in love" with all 6 of them....geesh!
165. WATCHED MTV AT 4 IN THE MORNING: actually, yes! it's not very entertaining
166. TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no, sick!
167. MADE PRANK PHONE CALLS: haha, when I was younger
168. PLAYED A MEAN JOKE ON A FRIEND: Hehe....
169. BOUGHT A CONDOM: nope, just used to sell them when I worked at the Pharm, and I just couldn't say, "have a good night" like I did to everyone else
170. BOUGHT SOME DRUGS: prescription
171. SNUCK OUT OF YOUR HOUSE: never needed to
172. KISSED SOMEONE YOU WEREN'T DATING AT THE TIME: no
173. BEEN HURT BY A GUY/GIRL YOU LOVED/LIKED: don't we all?
174. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: Holland, Sweden, Denmark, Germany
175. WET THE BED: another thing that happened a long time ago
176. ROLLED SOMEONE'S HOUSE: what does that mean? but, no
177. HAD YOUR HOUSE ROLLED: is this the newest fad?
178. BROKEN THE LAW?: did you read the question about the speeding tickets? I'm sober now....no more speeding!
179. KILLED SOMEONE IN YOUR THOUGHTS: sad
180. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT: dumb minor ones
181. BEEN BEAT UP: no
182. BEATEN UP SOMEONE: only when I have such anger that I can't contain....right....
183. SKIPPED SCHOOL: rarely....but one day Jon Taylor made me do it, like actually leave school in the middle of the day, I felt like such a rebel...but it was a bad day and I needed it...and he needed clean pants
184. BEEN SCARED ENOUGH TO PISS IN YOUR PANTS: more like LAUGHING...not scared!
185. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND": like I said, "forgive and FORGET"
186. STABBED SOMEONE IN THE BACK: I don't think so.
187. CRIED AT A MOVIE: yeah, dude, I'm such a sap
189. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: has been Mike, but I think that has to change
191. WHAT DO YOU HATE: the fact that no one on this earth has the ability to drive legally and politely
192. WHAT MAKES YOU ANGRY: I don't want to mention these things because it will make the anger linger
193. WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET?: I don't know, are you giving me an opportunity?
194. WHO DO YOU MISS?: Jack, Mike, Dave, Robb, Joel, Emily S, Emily R, Emily H, Emily J, hehe, PK, Jon and Karla, JaNae, is the list long enough for you yet?
195. DO YOU WANT TO LEAVE THE CITY YOU LIVE IN: only temporarily...I'm a homegirl
196. WHO WOULD YOU DIE FOR?: at this point, I don't think I can say anyone
198. WHO IS THE NICEST PERSON YOU KNOW: I ONLY know nice people!!! :)
199. THE MEANEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: um, don't make me answer that, it will make me angry and feel bad for him
200. WHO IS THE MOST ATTRACTIVE PERSON YOU KNOW?: that I know? why can't I say Matt Damon or Ashton Kutcher? ;)
201. WHO IS THE UGLIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: seriously.
202. WHO MIGHT YOU SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH?: I have yet to find that out
204. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SMILE? well, my mom is the only one here and I am sure I have laughed at her
205. WHICH IS YOUR FAVORITE STAR WARS?: sorry, not a fan
206. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? I have been my mother's daughter longer than I can remember! ;)
207. ARE U POPULAR? am I?
208. WHAT TIME DO YOU GET UP IN THE MORNING? 6am....grrrr....
209. NUMBER OF KIDS YOU WANT? 2-3
210. FAVORITE BOY NAMES? haven't decided
211. FAVORITE GIRL NAMES? ditto
212. ANY HOLES IN YOUR BODY? my ears
213. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? a MV v-ball shirt with a cheap vest over it and my new fave Old Navy jeans...oh, and socks and underwear and my Mickey Mouse watch, and a ponytail
214. WHO IS YOUR ROLE MODEL? can't say I have one
215. PEN OR PENCIL? markers :)
216. WHAT TIME IS IT? 8:20 PM
217. WHAT TIME DID YOU START? about the time Friends started, so 7ish
218. OR ARE YOU JUST SLOW AT TYPING? I am STINKIN' fast!!!
219. WANT OTHERS TO WRITE BACK? hahahahahahahahaha
1. NAME: Sara Elizabeth Lightbody
2. WHO WERE YOU NAMED AFTER? Sara(i) in the Bible...I was supposed to be named Kari, don't know why...actually, my brother was supposed to be named Kari and I was supposed to be named Timothy, then both of us turned out to be the other sex so my parents totally changed their minds....just think if I didn't have my name....
3. SCHOOL: I went to...RoseHill preschool, Chippewa Kindergarten, Snail Lake Elementary, Chippewa Middle (yes, the same one as K), Mounds View High, and Bethel College (yes, COLLEGE, not UNIVERSITY)
4. MASCOT: MV Mustangs and Bethel Royals
5. NICKNAME(s): oh goodness....lightsnack, lightsmack, smackbody, rockbody, like-my-body, light-a-body, ligsar, they keep on coming...
6. BIRTHDAY: Dec. 4, 1979
7. ZODIAC SIGN: um, saggitarius, but i don't care
8. GRADE: 18th, if you were to keep counting, but I am not in school
9. AVERAGE: GPA? not telling
10. HEIGHT: 5'6"
11. SHOE SIZE: 9
12. EYE COLOR: hazel green
13. HAIR COLOR: hahaha....I think the best I can describe it is goldish brown..?? somewhat blonde
14. HOMETOWN: Shoreview/Arden Hills, MN
15. SIBLINGS: my big bro Dave who just turned 29
16. LAST CDs YOU BOUGHT: BarlowGirl, Jeremy Camp- the Worship Project
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATER: 13 Going on 30
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: Chasing Liberty and Big Fish (2nd one way good, 1st, way bad!)
19. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE LINE/SCENE OF THAT MOVIE? I don't remember that until I have seen it at least more than once
20. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: I don't know anymore
21. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATH?: until you get to Calculus, yeah
22. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MUSICALS?: who wants to take me to see Annie at the Chanhassen??? :)
23. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE BAND? OR ARE YOU IN IT BECAUSE ALL THE COOL KIDS ARE? OR ARE YOU *GASP* NOT IN IT AT ALL? AND IS THIS QUESTION TOO LONG?: This question is definitely too long. I was the biggest band nerd in high school. I was in it for a semester and a half in college, but that insane director we had made me play a crappy Bari Sax and then she made me cry...I opted to just stay in choir after that major frustration.
24. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH: as a matter of fact, no
25. DOES HE/SHE GIVE YOU HOT/COLD FEVER AND PUT YOU IN A COLD, COLD SWEAT?: what the heck?
26. DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT SONG THAT'S FROM?: um, no
27. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Julia Roberts, Jennifer Aniston, Julia Stiles
28. FAVORITE ACTOR: Matt Damon, Ashton Kutcher!
29. FAVORITE MOVIE: My Best Friend's Wedding
30. FAVORITE TV SHOW: Friends (watching it right now!)
31. FAVORITE THING TO DO ON WEEKEND: chill out and hang out, sleep in!!!, go on a road trip
32. FAVORITE COLOR: BLUE
33. FAVORITE HOCKEY TEAMS: Gophers
34. FAVORITE STORES: Old Navy, Target
35. FAVORITE SONG: Rhapsody in Blue...Jon Taylor will be playing it at my wedding
36. DO YOU DO ANY DRUGS?: no way
37. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST?: 200 some, I guess I am a "people person"
38. WHAT'S YOUR FAV. SPORT: volleyball, hockey, football (and when MN is in the playoffs, baseball and basketball)
39. ARE YOU ON ANY SPORTS TEAM?: not currently
40. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER?: as long as I can be
41. WHAT'S YOUR FAV. PLACE TO GO ON VACATION: if it's a vacation, anywhere....going to LA again this summer!!!!
42. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: no
43. IF YOU ARE A BOY, WHAT DO YOUR PANTS SAY?: n/a and what is that question talking about?
44. IF YOU ARE A GIRL, WHAT MAKEUP DO YOU WEAR?: I don't pay enough attention to answer that, so why should you?
45. HATS ON OPPOSITE SEX?: not all the time, but for sure
46. BEST NUMBER EVER: 5
47. WORST FEAR: actually, not so sure
48. FAVORITE DAY: Sunday
49. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: being loved
50. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: witnessing someone deny God and feeling powerless
51. BILL CLINTON?: grrrr....
52. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: when it happens to me, I will let you know
53. ABORTION: "Thou shalt not kill"
54. SMOKING: makes me sick
55. EATING DISORDERS: sad
56. JOHN S. ANDERSON: who?
57. ATHLETES: :)
58. MARILYN MANSON: ewwwwwwww
59. BOY BANDS: Adam, are you ever going to give me my BSB CD's back?
60. DEATH: "this world is not my home, I'm just a-passin' through, my treasures are laid out somewhere beyond the blue..."
61. SCHOOL: done!
62. TITANIC?: I enjoyed that flick :)
63. JERRY SPRINGER: oh boy...hahahaha
64. WISCONSIN: what the? I'm a MINNESOTA girl!
65. MAINE: i need to visit the east!!!!!
66. SCHOOL VIOLENCE: what is wrong with kids these days?
67. SURVIVOR: never watched it, sorry
68. CHEATING (on someone): sad
69. PRE-MARITAL SEX: absolutely NOT!
70. DO YOU HAVE A JOB?: praise Jesus, I do
71. WHAT COLLEGE DO YOU WANT TO GO TO?: already been there
72. WHERE WILL YOU LIVE: "Where He leads me, I will go"
73. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK: no
74. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING?: thank God, no
75. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO YOUR OWN SMELL?: what? I mean...yes....I sneeze all the time, sorry if it bothers you
76. THAT'S KIND OF WEIRD. the person who wrote these new questions is weird
77. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SSSSSSSSSSSSSSATAN?: grrr....
78. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ANGELS?: yeah dude
79. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS? yup, they came to America from another country, many of them illegally
80. DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
81. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?: YES!!!!!
82. WHAT DO YOU DO THAT MAKES YOUR FRIENDS MAD: I don't know. I'm perfect. Just kidding.
83. ARE YOU MAD AT ANY OF YOUR FRIENDS?: yeah, right
84. DO YOU HAVE ANY STUFFED ANIMALS?: tons...I collect pigs!
85. DO YOU HAVE ANY BAD HABITS?: yes, don't remind me....I'm chewing on a bitten finger nail right now!
86. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE JOKE/QUOTE/SONG LYRIC: "Sara spelled without an H was getting bored." "Teach me to know that I need You, simply because, Lord, I need You. Not cause I'm tired of what I do." a whole lot more....
87. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE HANGOUT: wherever my friends are
89. CRAIG KILBORNE OR LENO?: Leno, but isn't Kilborne the one from Minnesota...that's pretty cool
90. MTV or VH1: well, am I watching "I Love the 80's", "Behind the Music" or "Real World" :)
91. BIF NAKED OR KITTY: um, huh? no?
92. 70's SHOW OR FRIENDS: FRIENDS!!!!!!!
93. SIMPSONS OR FUTURAMA: Simpsons
94. 7TH HEAVEN OR DREW CAREY: 7th Heaven
95. DOOBIE BROTHERS OR STEVE MILLER BAND? neither, I was born in 1979, geesh
96. SHOES OR NO SHOES: flip-flops?
97. APPLES OR ORANGES: oranges
98. CHOCOLATES OR FLOWERS: depends on if I am hungry or just feeling loved....and the flowers stick around longer...but sometimes a girl just needs chocolate!
99. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE LOVE SONG? I need to know who is going to sing it to me, then I will let you know
100. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAK-UP SONG?: seriously, that's really sad
101. SILVER OR GOLD: don't really care
102. IF YOU COULD BE ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE WOULD YOU BE?: lots of places....California makes the list...Europe too
103. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN BETRAYED?: "forgive and FORGET"
104. HOW DO YOU PERSONALLY RATE YOUR BRAIN FROM 1-10? hahaha...who edited that one? I have my smart moments and my dumb ones, I don't know
105. WHEN IS YOUR CURFEW?: never ever had one!
106. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING OF AT THIS VERY MOMENT: Emily is almost home!!! But I can't go see her so I'm going to sit at home and do dumb stuff...well, maybe getting something done.
107. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE SONG "BAKARDI SLANG"?: I don't think I have heard it, but I am sure it is pretty dumb.
108. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?: no way dude, meat is good!..God provided animals for us to use them, be it for pets, work, beauty, research or food!
109. FAVORITE KINDS OF CLOTHES: comfy ones
110. THE LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED?: hmmm....voicemail, before that, Kelsi Bengtson and Applebee's
111. THE LAST TV SHOW YOU WATCHED: right now "Will and Grace" is on
HAVE YOU EVERs:
112. BEEN TO A CONCERT? did you forget who you are talking to?
113. BEEN ON A PLANE: yes
114. GONE SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN?: swimming no, but I have been in it in San Fran
115. FISHED: that certainly does not excite me, no
116. BEEN STOPPED BY A COP: um, well, I can't count that high...I think nine times for speeding alone
117. BEEN ACCUSED OF SHOPLIFTING: no. accused of a hit and run, yes
118. BEEN CAUGHT PARKING: say what?
119. HAVE YOU EVER GONE SHOP LIFTING: no
120. CRIED IN PUBLIC: yes
121. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: you betchya
122. FALLEN ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: oh dear
123. FALLEN ASLEEP WHILE EATING: why would I do that?
124. TRIED TO MOUTH WHAT SOMEONE WAS SAYING AS THEY SAID IT WITHOUT REALLY KNOWING WHAT THEY WERE GOING TO SAY? I don't know if I understand this question....
125. READ THE BIBLE: couldn't have my faith without it
126. CLIMBED A TREE: not recently
127. JOINED THE MILE HIGH CLUB: holy cow!
128. GONE SKIING: yeah, um, I fell on the bunny hill in 6th grade and haven't gone since...I'm afraid of hurting myself, especially since my entire income depends on full function of all of my limbs
129. RAN A MARATHON: um, ha, sure, right
130. FALLEN ASLEEP IN CLASS: only once or twice when there was a movie showing, and I was very tired....I think it is very rude and disrespectful
131. FALLEN ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: um, probably
132. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: I usually only make it till 3 at the latest...one time I did stay up all night, I crashed about 7 or 8 and then slept through the presentation I worked on cuz staying up made me sick
133. BEEN TO CAMP: BSC here I come!!!!
134. BEEN BITTEN BY AN ANIMAL?: well, yeah, but no serious flesh wound or anything
135. PLAYED SOCCER: yeah, not so good at it though
136. BEEN TO A MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL GAME: GO TWINS!!!! and I have been to San Diego and Anaheim....way fun!!
137. SEEN A PRO FOOTBALL GAME: GO VIKES!!! (on TV)
138. KISSED A GUY: that's personal info! ;)
139. GOT A DETENTION: I skipped school mornings in Junior High alot (yup, definitely not a morning person- for my entire life), and I scratched a guy and got it for that too.
140. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHOUT ORDERING ANYTHING: well, you see, I used to work at Perkins
141. EATEN SQUID: ewwwwwwww
142. EATEN FISH: like I said, ewwww
143. WISHED YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: um, no, not really
144. CHEATED ON HOMEWORK: NO! and it angered me when other people got the straight A's when I knew they were cheating, and I did honest work and did not do as well....grrr...
145. WANTED TO DIE: no
146. MET A CELEBRITY? a few, not so major ones...but remember that I might meet Britney Spears this summer? :)
147. RIDDEN IN A TAXI: yes...not so good experiences...thank God I have a car!
148. RIDDEN IN A POLICE CAR: ridden, no
149. RIDDEN A PONY: actually, a horse, not a pony...in Colorado!
150. BOUGHT A PONY FOR YOURSELF: cuz I can afford that? and have a place to keep it?
151. BOUGHT A PONY FOR SOMEONE ELSE: golly, these are dumb questions
152. WHY NOT: see past answer
153. DO YOU THINK YOUR MOM WOULD BUY YOU A PONY: seriously, stop with the pony
154. TOLD SOMEONE YOU LOVED THEM: rather often :)
155. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: yup
156. USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: yes...had to buy my plane ticket to LA with it too (I paid her back instantly)
157. BEEN SCARED TO GET A SHOT?: well...maybe a bit apprehensive
158. HAD TO GET BRACES?: praise Jesus, no, but I have had other recent not so fun tooth experiences
159. HAD TO BE IN THE HOSPITAL: nope
160. SHOPPED AT ABERCROMBIE FITCH: yes, I will admit...only for major sales
161. SHOPPED AT GAP: for sure
162. SHOPPED AT ZELLERS? what is that?
163. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: not so much :(
164. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: yes, and I was "in love" with all 6 of them....geesh!
165. WATCHED MTV AT 4 IN THE MORNING: actually, yes! it's not very entertaining
166. TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no, sick!
167. MADE PRANK PHONE CALLS: haha, when I was younger
168. PLAYED A MEAN JOKE ON A FRIEND: Hehe....
169. BOUGHT A CONDOM: nope, just used to sell them when I worked at the Pharm, and I just couldn't say, "have a good night" like I did to everyone else
170. BOUGHT SOME DRUGS: prescription
171. SNUCK OUT OF YOUR HOUSE: never needed to
172. KISSED SOMEONE YOU WEREN'T DATING AT THE TIME: no
173. BEEN HURT BY A GUY/GIRL YOU LOVED/LIKED: don't we all?
174. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: Holland, Sweden, Denmark, Germany
175. WET THE BED: another thing that happened a long time ago
176. ROLLED SOMEONE'S HOUSE: what does that mean? but, no
177. HAD YOUR HOUSE ROLLED: is this the newest fad?
178. BROKEN THE LAW?: did you read the question about the speeding tickets? I'm sober now....no more speeding!
179. KILLED SOMEONE IN YOUR THOUGHTS: sad
180. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT: dumb minor ones
181. BEEN BEAT UP: no
182. BEATEN UP SOMEONE: only when I have such anger that I can't contain....right....
183. SKIPPED SCHOOL: rarely....but one day Jon Taylor made me do it, like actually leave school in the middle of the day, I felt like such a rebel...but it was a bad day and I needed it...and he needed clean pants
184. BEEN SCARED ENOUGH TO PISS IN YOUR PANTS: more like LAUGHING...not scared!
185. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND": like I said, "forgive and FORGET"
186. STABBED SOMEONE IN THE BACK: I don't think so.
187. CRIED AT A MOVIE: yeah, dude, I'm such a sap
189. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: has been Mike, but I think that has to change
191. WHAT DO YOU HATE: the fact that no one on this earth has the ability to drive legally and politely
192. WHAT MAKES YOU ANGRY: I don't want to mention these things because it will make the anger linger
193. WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET?: I don't know, are you giving me an opportunity?
194. WHO DO YOU MISS?: Jack, Mike, Dave, Robb, Joel, Emily S, Emily R, Emily H, Emily J, hehe, PK, Jon and Karla, JaNae, is the list long enough for you yet?
195. DO YOU WANT TO LEAVE THE CITY YOU LIVE IN: only temporarily...I'm a homegirl
196. WHO WOULD YOU DIE FOR?: at this point, I don't think I can say anyone
198. WHO IS THE NICEST PERSON YOU KNOW: I ONLY know nice people!!! :)
199. THE MEANEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: um, don't make me answer that, it will make me angry and feel bad for him
200. WHO IS THE MOST ATTRACTIVE PERSON YOU KNOW?: that I know? why can't I say Matt Damon or Ashton Kutcher? ;)
201. WHO IS THE UGLIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: seriously.
202. WHO MIGHT YOU SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH?: I have yet to find that out
204. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SMILE? well, my mom is the only one here and I am sure I have laughed at her
205. WHICH IS YOUR FAVORITE STAR WARS?: sorry, not a fan
206. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? I have been my mother's daughter longer than I can remember! ;)
207. ARE U POPULAR? am I?
208. WHAT TIME DO YOU GET UP IN THE MORNING? 6am....grrrr....
209. NUMBER OF KIDS YOU WANT? 2-3
210. FAVORITE BOY NAMES? haven't decided
211. FAVORITE GIRL NAMES? ditto
212. ANY HOLES IN YOUR BODY? my ears
213. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? a MV v-ball shirt with a cheap vest over it and my new fave Old Navy jeans...oh, and socks and underwear and my Mickey Mouse watch, and a ponytail
214. WHO IS YOUR ROLE MODEL? can't say I have one
215. PEN OR PENCIL? markers :)
216. WHAT TIME IS IT? 8:20 PM
217. WHAT TIME DID YOU START? about the time Friends started, so 7ish
218. OR ARE YOU JUST SLOW AT TYPING? I am STINKIN' fast!!!
219. WANT OTHERS TO WRITE BACK? hahahahahahahahaha
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
What a difference a year makes
How often do you think about where you were and what was happening a year ago. It can be quite interesting and thought provoking. And time flies so fast it seems, that it isn't too hard to remember that long ago. It's hard to believe we have gotten that far.
The dates aren't exact, but a year ago today, (and this week) I was at BSC, ready to start my summer back there after a year off, with a new position, excited to watch the last two episodes of American Idol (I was all for Clay!) with Kelly, putting in the dock with Tate, making things for the counselors, filing music, and glad to be done with my year at the bus company. Those are the easy memories.
The hard memory is that on this day, last year, my good friend Joel, who worked at the bus company with me, was sitting in jail, and none of us knew it. He was arrested on Tuesday, shortly after my last shift at the bus company, shortly before I headed up north, (or I would have had to figure something out once he didn't show up at work Tues. afternoon, or all day Wednesday- but I wasn't there.) What came the next day was one of the hardest things I have ever had to face in my life. It was especially hard on me because I was away from home and had to experience the news second hand, without having my friends' support around me. All excited to go out for dinner, my phone rang with the shocking news. I spent the rest of the evening sobbing in disbelief and confusion, anger and fear, hurt and lonely. I'll never forget sitting on the couch, watching the news with his mugshot while Kelly held my hand. I can't describe the way it felt. I packed my bag and drove home, arriving to Amy's house at almost 2am where I would learn more of the story. And this was only the beginning. Praise God for his sovereignty, even when we don't know it's there. Hard to believe it's a whole year later, but I think I believe that the hardest is over. Thank God that what we never would have imagined to occur is in the past and healing has taken foot in a long role to play.
A year in the life of the Lord has brought me a long way...a lot of adventure, many trials, many blessings, lots of growing, new experiences, life changing circumstances, new friends, stronger relationships, loss of relationships, gained strength for new experiences, lessons learned...what has the past year brought you?
Boo for Fantasia....seriously!
The dates aren't exact, but a year ago today, (and this week) I was at BSC, ready to start my summer back there after a year off, with a new position, excited to watch the last two episodes of American Idol (I was all for Clay!) with Kelly, putting in the dock with Tate, making things for the counselors, filing music, and glad to be done with my year at the bus company. Those are the easy memories.
The hard memory is that on this day, last year, my good friend Joel, who worked at the bus company with me, was sitting in jail, and none of us knew it. He was arrested on Tuesday, shortly after my last shift at the bus company, shortly before I headed up north, (or I would have had to figure something out once he didn't show up at work Tues. afternoon, or all day Wednesday- but I wasn't there.) What came the next day was one of the hardest things I have ever had to face in my life. It was especially hard on me because I was away from home and had to experience the news second hand, without having my friends' support around me. All excited to go out for dinner, my phone rang with the shocking news. I spent the rest of the evening sobbing in disbelief and confusion, anger and fear, hurt and lonely. I'll never forget sitting on the couch, watching the news with his mugshot while Kelly held my hand. I can't describe the way it felt. I packed my bag and drove home, arriving to Amy's house at almost 2am where I would learn more of the story. And this was only the beginning. Praise God for his sovereignty, even when we don't know it's there. Hard to believe it's a whole year later, but I think I believe that the hardest is over. Thank God that what we never would have imagined to occur is in the past and healing has taken foot in a long role to play.
A year in the life of the Lord has brought me a long way...a lot of adventure, many trials, many blessings, lots of growing, new experiences, life changing circumstances, new friends, stronger relationships, loss of relationships, gained strength for new experiences, lessons learned...what has the past year brought you?
Boo for Fantasia....seriously!
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Shy Flower Girl
I just wanted to share this really cute picture of me at the age of 5.
It was the very first wedding I was in, my cousin Jenny's (who I don't think I have seen since then!) as the flower girl. The memory of this day makes me laugh a lot. I was so excited to be in a wedding and wear this really pretty dress. At least that's probably how my parents psyched me up for it. But as the most shy kid ever, (seriously, I was) I was cool with all the rehearsals and stuff. But I totally remember by the time all the people were there, I was sitting in the back of the sanctuary determined that I was done. I said, "mom, I'm not going to do this part ." That's when this picture was taken. My cousin Chad who was the ring bearer was sitting next to me with a look on his face like, "what is wrong with her!" and this "strange lady" with red hair and a ugly 80's tealish color dress was sitting there telling me that they needed me and that I "would be the prettiest one up there". I don't remember any more than that, but I guess I must have ended up going through with it. But there are other pictures with the wedding party where I had an angry, "get me out of here" look on my face...okay, not that bad, but I was not smiling.
Strange childhood memories....a fun one though.....:) I loved that dress and cried the day it wouldn't fit any more!
It was the very first wedding I was in, my cousin Jenny's (who I don't think I have seen since then!) as the flower girl. The memory of this day makes me laugh a lot. I was so excited to be in a wedding and wear this really pretty dress. At least that's probably how my parents psyched me up for it. But as the most shy kid ever, (seriously, I was) I was cool with all the rehearsals and stuff. But I totally remember by the time all the people were there, I was sitting in the back of the sanctuary determined that I was done. I said, "mom, I'm not going to do this part ." That's when this picture was taken. My cousin Chad who was the ring bearer was sitting next to me with a look on his face like, "what is wrong with her!" and this "strange lady" with red hair and a ugly 80's tealish color dress was sitting there telling me that they needed me and that I "would be the prettiest one up there". I don't remember any more than that, but I guess I must have ended up going through with it. But there are other pictures with the wedding party where I had an angry, "get me out of here" look on my face...okay, not that bad, but I was not smiling.
Strange childhood memories....a fun one though.....:) I loved that dress and cried the day it wouldn't fit any more!
that special someone
I was going to write this morning, but I didn't know what to write about. I guess sometimes you just have to live a day, and then before you know it, you have all kinds of things to say, and then you can't wait to sit down and type it out before you forget it. You don't have to read this...I just need to let it out.
This post is going to be a little more deep and personal than previous ones....after all, when I first started, I knew I would get around to the topic of love, and relationships, and engagements and that whole part of life. I guess it just seems that when you are at the stage of life that I am at, it is unavoidable.
Do you have someone in your life that knows you better than you know yourself? That without trying, and without telling yourself to do so, you unconditionally love them more than anyone or life itself in a way you can't even describe? That you would do anything for? That you can run to at anytime you need someone to listen or cry with you no matter what they are doing? That you want with you for everything you experience in life? That you enjoy spending time with whether you are doing anything at all or nothing at all? That tells you that they love you and you know it's true and that it is the most real and amazing thing you can ever feel? It doesn't even have to be a person of the opposite sex, or dating or anything like that...just someone in your life that means the world to you. If you do, and especially if you have someone that will be that person for the rest of your lives, like if you are married to them....then I hope that you are THANKING GOD for that every single waking moment of the day. Don't take if for granted- you are blessed! It's definitely a very natural thing that I think everyone in this world longs for....
Although that is true, I don't believe that I have ever been one to be so desperate for it (as I hear people all the time...whining and depressing themselves because they don't have "that special someone"), although I have never had someone I call a boyfriend or even a single "best friend". (I have had many people in life that at different times I will call "one of my best friends" or a best friend of the time- not one through all of life.) I have always known that God is the One to fill that void, to love me, to run to...so that I don't need to go elsewhere always searching...and most of all, that He will provide that man in time. Although I wanted it and even thought I had the right guy in mind, I was content in knowing that God was going to be the One making things happen. I would just wait. After all, I have had lots of great friends, and for that I have always been thankful. I always have gotten sick of hearing people complain about being sick of engagements or not having one. I share in others' joy very easily! :) Complaining is not worth it. But I am ready to have someone to always run to, always be with, always talk to, always love. Whether that person be a best friend or a boyfriend or a husband...gosh, why couldn't I just have a sister! If I have ever someone like that, I think it has only lasted a short time...something always changes.
You know this had to be sparked by something....Tonight I spent time with the friend who two years ago I would have called the "best friend" that knew me so well that he would say things I never thought I told him or that I didn't realize myself, would wipe away my tears, set me straight and tell me that he loved me, I could go to everyday just to sit and do nothing, I felt his pain like it was my own and would do anything I could for him, we had lots of good times and memories. Well, it didn't change immediately, but by the time we didn't see each other everyday at school and he was dating the one he would marry, it slowly but surely changed drastically. Although the impact he has had on my life will always be there (such as the fact that I would not have the job I do, and I understand much more about life and relationships), the role he's held is not there. It's come down to seeing each other every couple of months, and rarely even keeping in touch. It's been hard to realize that the one he will marry has long surpassed any role I ever had in his life and that well, because I am a girl, I don't have much role left to fill. I'm not jealous or bitter about any of this. I am very happy for the two of them. But I can't help but wonder if I would be even happier if I had that person too and therefore wouldn't be so hard to watch this friendship slip away from me as I watch him prepare to spend his life with her. I just miss him and what we had.
It was enhanced by the fact that we hung out with two married couples (that were more his friends than mine). Here I am the only one that is completely unattached, not having a clue what it is like to be in those shoes...
Anyway, although I am content in waiting in what God has planned for me as well as the fact that He is in control and sovereign in what state I am in right now...I've been wondering tonight if I am ready for that special someone or if at least that I could have amidst the masses of friendships, one that could truly fill that spot of a best friend. I know it's normal, and I know that I trust God, and seriously, He has given me a sound mind and heart about it...if I seem I am complaining or feeling sorry for myself, I'm not...I'm just feeling and thinking. And it's pretty randomly stated! But since I know you often talk to the man upstairs too, maybe you could just tell Him that I would be up for this...cuz maybe if I really ask Him for it, it will come! ;)
Way past my bedtime...
PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!
This post is going to be a little more deep and personal than previous ones....after all, when I first started, I knew I would get around to the topic of love, and relationships, and engagements and that whole part of life. I guess it just seems that when you are at the stage of life that I am at, it is unavoidable.
Do you have someone in your life that knows you better than you know yourself? That without trying, and without telling yourself to do so, you unconditionally love them more than anyone or life itself in a way you can't even describe? That you would do anything for? That you can run to at anytime you need someone to listen or cry with you no matter what they are doing? That you want with you for everything you experience in life? That you enjoy spending time with whether you are doing anything at all or nothing at all? That tells you that they love you and you know it's true and that it is the most real and amazing thing you can ever feel? It doesn't even have to be a person of the opposite sex, or dating or anything like that...just someone in your life that means the world to you. If you do, and especially if you have someone that will be that person for the rest of your lives, like if you are married to them....then I hope that you are THANKING GOD for that every single waking moment of the day. Don't take if for granted- you are blessed! It's definitely a very natural thing that I think everyone in this world longs for....
Although that is true, I don't believe that I have ever been one to be so desperate for it (as I hear people all the time...whining and depressing themselves because they don't have "that special someone"), although I have never had someone I call a boyfriend or even a single "best friend". (I have had many people in life that at different times I will call "one of my best friends" or a best friend of the time- not one through all of life.) I have always known that God is the One to fill that void, to love me, to run to...so that I don't need to go elsewhere always searching...and most of all, that He will provide that man in time. Although I wanted it and even thought I had the right guy in mind, I was content in knowing that God was going to be the One making things happen. I would just wait. After all, I have had lots of great friends, and for that I have always been thankful. I always have gotten sick of hearing people complain about being sick of engagements or not having one. I share in others' joy very easily! :) Complaining is not worth it. But I am ready to have someone to always run to, always be with, always talk to, always love. Whether that person be a best friend or a boyfriend or a husband...gosh, why couldn't I just have a sister! If I have ever someone like that, I think it has only lasted a short time...something always changes.
You know this had to be sparked by something....Tonight I spent time with the friend who two years ago I would have called the "best friend" that knew me so well that he would say things I never thought I told him or that I didn't realize myself, would wipe away my tears, set me straight and tell me that he loved me, I could go to everyday just to sit and do nothing, I felt his pain like it was my own and would do anything I could for him, we had lots of good times and memories. Well, it didn't change immediately, but by the time we didn't see each other everyday at school and he was dating the one he would marry, it slowly but surely changed drastically. Although the impact he has had on my life will always be there (such as the fact that I would not have the job I do, and I understand much more about life and relationships), the role he's held is not there. It's come down to seeing each other every couple of months, and rarely even keeping in touch. It's been hard to realize that the one he will marry has long surpassed any role I ever had in his life and that well, because I am a girl, I don't have much role left to fill. I'm not jealous or bitter about any of this. I am very happy for the two of them. But I can't help but wonder if I would be even happier if I had that person too and therefore wouldn't be so hard to watch this friendship slip away from me as I watch him prepare to spend his life with her. I just miss him and what we had.
It was enhanced by the fact that we hung out with two married couples (that were more his friends than mine). Here I am the only one that is completely unattached, not having a clue what it is like to be in those shoes...
Anyway, although I am content in waiting in what God has planned for me as well as the fact that He is in control and sovereign in what state I am in right now...I've been wondering tonight if I am ready for that special someone or if at least that I could have amidst the masses of friendships, one that could truly fill that spot of a best friend. I know it's normal, and I know that I trust God, and seriously, He has given me a sound mind and heart about it...if I seem I am complaining or feeling sorry for myself, I'm not...I'm just feeling and thinking. And it's pretty randomly stated! But since I know you often talk to the man upstairs too, maybe you could just tell Him that I would be up for this...cuz maybe if I really ask Him for it, it will come! ;)
Way past my bedtime...
PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!
WHOA, girl!
Well, I just got news of the latest engagement. The first of my campers, which I knew had to happen soon, because the number of unmarried staff members is quickly diminishing. I thought about putting pics up here of several recent engagements (one of the two of them, or me with one of them), but that would be some insanity. Anyway, this is one that I have of camper friend Gina Malone, and her fiance Robert:
Congrats to them!
P.S. Happy Birthday to Gina too!
Congrats to them!
P.S. Happy Birthday to Gina too!
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
PICTURES IN MY POSTS!!!
So my friend Missie rocks because she just told me how to put pictures in my posts...goodness gracious, if this works I am going to have SO MUCH FUN! It will be great for summer, because I can put in pictures of what is happening at camp and you can feel like you are there! ;)
This is going to be a test:
That's me and my pals Peter, Emily and Dylan when we went to Garden of the Gods in Colorado in January. I like it ALOT! :)
This is going to be a test:
That's me and my pals Peter, Emily and Dylan when we went to Garden of the Gods in Colorado in January. I like it ALOT! :)
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
my bro is 29
oops....I forgot...not that he reads this....but you can all telepathically wish my big bro Dave HAPPY BIRTHDAY...today, the 18th! :-D
Sara's quick view into the entertainment world
I just came from seeing 13 Going on 30 with my pal Eric. He was very nice to agree to go to whatever movie I wanted to see, so that was very cool. He is a fan of the movie Big, as am I, so it was a special treat for both of us...I think it's extraa fun for those of us who are children of the 80's. I have to say that Jennifer Garner is just so gosh darn cute! When we got there, they were showing a preview for Raising Helen. Eric informed me that our friends Derek and Wes, who are working for Garry Marshall in L.A. actually are in the movie. So I can't wait to go to see that one. When I was in L.A. last year I stopped by the theater where they work and actually went into Garry Marshall's office....so that was very exciting!
Along the Hollywood lines....I can't share many details...but...I may just have the opportunity to meet Britney Spears one, maybe two times, this summer. Ah, the joys of two degrees of separation! I will see what I can do to make this more exciting for y'all...to make it up to those of you who don't believe me and must be jealous that I have been within 2 foot distance of Tiffani-Amber Theisen (Kelly Kapowski) and Jennie Garth (Kelly - 90210). Hahahahahahaha....
I discovered a new Christian band that I absolutely LOVE....they are called BarlowGirl, and they are three sisters (with the last name Barlow) that have beautiful pure voices and play piano, bass, guitar and drums. They remind me a lot of Evanescence (I'm tired of typing in links), a little bit of Avril Lavigne and Nicole Nordman.....somewhat rockish, but totally beautiful! Great stuff!
Time for bed....peace....
Along the Hollywood lines....I can't share many details...but...I may just have the opportunity to meet Britney Spears one, maybe two times, this summer. Ah, the joys of two degrees of separation! I will see what I can do to make this more exciting for y'all...to make it up to those of you who don't believe me and must be jealous that I have been within 2 foot distance of Tiffani-Amber Theisen (Kelly Kapowski) and Jennie Garth (Kelly - 90210). Hahahahahahaha....
I discovered a new Christian band that I absolutely LOVE....they are called BarlowGirl, and they are three sisters (with the last name Barlow) that have beautiful pure voices and play piano, bass, guitar and drums. They remind me a lot of Evanescence (I'm tired of typing in links), a little bit of Avril Lavigne and Nicole Nordman.....somewhat rockish, but totally beautiful! Great stuff!
Time for bed....peace....
Monday, May 17, 2004
duck killer
Warning: if you are an animal activist or have a weak stomach, you may want to skip this paragraph...I love not being a normal girl...I tend to have a liking to such goryness (sp?)
Have you seen Beethoven, the movie about the St. Bernard terror? Well, I'm remembering the scene today of the little girl who is so upset that her dad took the dog to be put to sleep and when he comes home, she calls him a "dog killer." If you can picture the scene and the tone of her voice, imagine her saying to me, "duck killer" and how that would make you feel. I was driving my bus route early this morning down Lexington Ave. All of the sudden there was a beautiful mallard duck flying in front of me. I slowed down, but I just couldn't enough and soon enough....I couldn't swerve either....and you know how usually when you see animals in the road, they amaze you with their quickness of getting out of the way...I thought it would get out of the way! I cringed as it rattled across the front corner of the bus, bumping the mirrors and flapping before it catapulted to the ground. I watched in the rear view mirror as its mangled body made its last movements and my aide said, "that's too bad". Didn't feel so good at this occurance. The only other time that I have hit an animal with a vehicle was a few years back when I was heading to my friend Karina's house on Turtle Lk Rd and I saw a turtle too late to get around it but tried to at least get it in between my tires....thump, thump, woops. Had a close call with a bird not too long ago too. Anyway....I drove the same road back this afternoon and did indeed see the lifeless body of the duck on the ground. :( I am a "duck killer".
I have officially had a blog online long enough that I can be like my other blogging friends and go a week without writing! I didn't even realize that time had gone by. Now, I don't know if it is because my life is too boring that I have nothing worth writing about, or if I just have too much going on that I can't decide what is the most worthy of writing about...there are several things going on in life right now...
I am currently planning my trip to LA for my friends' Jen and Blake's wedding in July. Obviously I can't afford much and I am actually still keeping my fingers crossed that I can make it happen...but I promised her that I would go over a year ago when I was out there, and I will get to see more people, including my good childhood friend Sarah C. that lives out there and will be there with her new husband...so I really, really want to go....plus it's CALIFORNIA...and not only that it's HOLLYWOOD! WAY FUN! The thing is though, is that I need to stay at camp as long as possible for the week and I have to be at church that weekend, so I will only be going out for the day of the wedding...still worth it, I say, but sad that I can't stay longer, and I would ask a friend or two to come too, but I don't want anyone else to spend that much money to chill there for a day with me! :)
Back to that "when was the last time you said, "I love you"" question...last night at Vespers I told Mel P and Jeff Z that I love them...only a couple of my friends that have been doing a wonderful job leading Vespers this year. I want to give mad props to people like, my Emily Ridder, her fiance Ross, Jeremiah, Cody, mad drummer Luke, Donovan, and so many more...the ones that have been on the forefront leading are the ones that I had a part in the application and placing process when they were applying to be on chapel teams and got to know them then and along the way during my senior year. It's so weird to think that it is now their turn to graduate. I'm not ready for that....hehe! So, I'm dwelling on two things right now...1. I have been blessed to meet and befriend, and worship with some pretty amazing people through Bethel College...and once I have been gone for two years I realize how much I miss those Bethel leading time and will continue to miss the people that I have done that with, and I have many amazing friends through that and other Bethel and BSC...and stuff, friends....2. stink, I'm getting old! I am 24...I have been out of college for two years! I just don't know how cool that is!!!!! Like Jeff said in his blog, we are closer to 30 than we are to 13....not feelin' that one!
Peace out!
Have you seen Beethoven, the movie about the St. Bernard terror? Well, I'm remembering the scene today of the little girl who is so upset that her dad took the dog to be put to sleep and when he comes home, she calls him a "dog killer." If you can picture the scene and the tone of her voice, imagine her saying to me, "duck killer" and how that would make you feel. I was driving my bus route early this morning down Lexington Ave. All of the sudden there was a beautiful mallard duck flying in front of me. I slowed down, but I just couldn't enough and soon enough....I couldn't swerve either....and you know how usually when you see animals in the road, they amaze you with their quickness of getting out of the way...I thought it would get out of the way! I cringed as it rattled across the front corner of the bus, bumping the mirrors and flapping before it catapulted to the ground. I watched in the rear view mirror as its mangled body made its last movements and my aide said, "that's too bad". Didn't feel so good at this occurance. The only other time that I have hit an animal with a vehicle was a few years back when I was heading to my friend Karina's house on Turtle Lk Rd and I saw a turtle too late to get around it but tried to at least get it in between my tires....thump, thump, woops. Had a close call with a bird not too long ago too. Anyway....I drove the same road back this afternoon and did indeed see the lifeless body of the duck on the ground. :( I am a "duck killer".
I have officially had a blog online long enough that I can be like my other blogging friends and go a week without writing! I didn't even realize that time had gone by. Now, I don't know if it is because my life is too boring that I have nothing worth writing about, or if I just have too much going on that I can't decide what is the most worthy of writing about...there are several things going on in life right now...
I am currently planning my trip to LA for my friends' Jen and Blake's wedding in July. Obviously I can't afford much and I am actually still keeping my fingers crossed that I can make it happen...but I promised her that I would go over a year ago when I was out there, and I will get to see more people, including my good childhood friend Sarah C. that lives out there and will be there with her new husband...so I really, really want to go....plus it's CALIFORNIA...and not only that it's HOLLYWOOD! WAY FUN! The thing is though, is that I need to stay at camp as long as possible for the week and I have to be at church that weekend, so I will only be going out for the day of the wedding...still worth it, I say, but sad that I can't stay longer, and I would ask a friend or two to come too, but I don't want anyone else to spend that much money to chill there for a day with me! :)
Back to that "when was the last time you said, "I love you"" question...last night at Vespers I told Mel P and Jeff Z that I love them...only a couple of my friends that have been doing a wonderful job leading Vespers this year. I want to give mad props to people like, my Emily Ridder, her fiance Ross, Jeremiah, Cody, mad drummer Luke, Donovan, and so many more...the ones that have been on the forefront leading are the ones that I had a part in the application and placing process when they were applying to be on chapel teams and got to know them then and along the way during my senior year. It's so weird to think that it is now their turn to graduate. I'm not ready for that....hehe! So, I'm dwelling on two things right now...1. I have been blessed to meet and befriend, and worship with some pretty amazing people through Bethel College...and once I have been gone for two years I realize how much I miss those Bethel leading time and will continue to miss the people that I have done that with, and I have many amazing friends through that and other Bethel and BSC...and stuff, friends....2. stink, I'm getting old! I am 24...I have been out of college for two years! I just don't know how cool that is!!!!! Like Jeff said in his blog, we are closer to 30 than we are to 13....not feelin' that one!
Peace out!
Monday, May 10, 2004
if i can ride my bike to your house, i'll visit you...
otherwise, sorry, because i am boycotting gasoline
I saw at least seven gas stations today where the price of regular unleaded gas costs $2.05 per gallon. This is the highest I have ever seen in MN...the first time over two dollars. Now I haven't been driving forever, but I can boast in the fact that when I started driving about eight years ago, I remember being able to get gas at just under a dollar. We got so excited when we found 98 cents! God forbid, it should have been over a dollar! Now it's more than two! Can we go back to last summer when it hovered closer to $1.50? This price increase will greatly affect my wallet this summer as I will be driving approximately 400 miles every weekend between home and camp, and then add on any miles that I should take my car on hospital runs for camp, (although they just purchased a nice mini-van and I will probably actually be driving that!) and whatever other traveling I do. Not the most miles I have driven in my Kia (all last year I drove over 400 miles per week just for work, plus everything else and other traveling- often totaling 700 or more), but I'm not excited about the costs of driving my car this summer.
Here's the thing though.....why are we so concerned when the price of gas varies over just a few cents and not care so often over the difference of many dollars of so many other things in life? Think about it. How often do you not care how much you pay for something if it's something you want. $5, 20, 50, 100,....ah, not much different. But when it comes to cents per gallon, we care so much.....honestly...I get gas when I need it, I fill it, and I really don't pay that much attention...why? Well, it's not necessarily a monopoly, but gas is a necessity. I just buy it because I need it, so if I don't pay attention, I can't care that much. And the difference, even when I purchase 11 gallons, (the Kia has a small tank!) isn't that much.
Off to watch the Wolves!!!
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me."
Here's the thing though.....why are we so concerned when the price of gas varies over just a few cents and not care so often over the difference of many dollars of so many other things in life? Think about it. How often do you not care how much you pay for something if it's something you want. $5, 20, 50, 100,....ah, not much different. But when it comes to cents per gallon, we care so much.....honestly...I get gas when I need it, I fill it, and I really don't pay that much attention...why? Well, it's not necessarily a monopoly, but gas is a necessity. I just buy it because I need it, so if I don't pay attention, I can't care that much. And the difference, even when I purchase 11 gallons, (the Kia has a small tank!) isn't that much.
Off to watch the Wolves!!!
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me."
Sunday, May 09, 2004
A preview of the next CD recording...
I couldn't think of what to write about, and I wanted to put something up....so I'm taking a nice easy option and copying and pasting a recent song that I wrote. It's been going through my head today. It really will be on the CD that Emily and I will be recording this year of songs that we have written....here goes... It's called, "By Faith" and it's based on Hebrews 11.
V.1 Faith is believin’
In what’s not been seen
Not knowing the future
And releasing the key
So what keeps me going when there seems no sense?
And where is the hope found in this emptiness?
Your grace is the answer
It’s saved me the pain
I’ve seen unending mercy
You have paved me the way
c.1 So I’ll keep walking, in Your path Lord
I know You’ll keep me from what’s wrong
You’ll never leave me nor forsake me
Although I don’t feel it, You’re there all along.
v.2 Sometimes my fear
Takes control of my mind
It blinds me to Your goodness
And keeps me stuck in one place
So where do I go, Lord when stubborness gains
A hold of my heart? Let Your sovereignty reign
Your will is the answer
I trust in Your name
Your blessings are forever
And Your love will remain
Br. By faith I understand You formed the universe
And by faith I earnestly seek You
By faith waters part and walls fall down
Kingdoms conquered, promises gained, flames quenched
Because You planned for better, that I may be perfect.
V.1 Faith is believin’
In what’s not been seen
Not knowing the future
And releasing the key
So what keeps me going when there seems no sense?
And where is the hope found in this emptiness?
Your grace is the answer
It’s saved me the pain
I’ve seen unending mercy
You have paved me the way
c.1 So I’ll keep walking, in Your path Lord
I know You’ll keep me from what’s wrong
You’ll never leave me nor forsake me
Although I don’t feel it, You’re there all along.
v.2 Sometimes my fear
Takes control of my mind
It blinds me to Your goodness
And keeps me stuck in one place
So where do I go, Lord when stubborness gains
A hold of my heart? Let Your sovereignty reign
Your will is the answer
I trust in Your name
Your blessings are forever
And Your love will remain
Br. By faith I understand You formed the universe
And by faith I earnestly seek You
By faith waters part and walls fall down
Kingdoms conquered, promises gained, flames quenched
Because You planned for better, that I may be perfect.
Saturday, May 08, 2004
What do you spend your money on?
I was checking my bank account online today, going over my recent transactions (since I never actually use that register thing supplied with the checkbook). Thanks to this online convenience and the fact that I almost always use my check card, it is easy to tell where much of my money goes, so I typed in to look at the last 14 months. The place that showed up an insane amount is Target! then there are lots of gas stations and random Proex, Walgreen's, Walmart (all during the summer!), Old Navy, Northwestern Books, Columbia House DVD, movie theaters, my ridiculous cell phone bill, and then you throw in the eating: Applebee's, BW3, Perkins, and more. Who knows where all my checks went- mostly bills. I just thought it was interesting to take a look at how all my money went in and went out. You never really think about how much you spend....well, I don't.
The T-wolves just won game #2 vs. the Kings! That's exciting. I hope they do well in this series.
I'm glad people are coming here and enjoying my pics. You gotta leave a note and let me know you have been here! I wish I had more pics, but in case you didn't catch on to this...I had hundreds and hundreds of pics on a couple of CD's and on my computer. Well, I brought the CD's on a road trip and they got lost. And at the same time my hard drive crashed and we were not able to save very many of the pics. So I don't have quite so many left and I don't know how thrilled I am at sitting down and scanning them all again. All the reason to consider buying a digital camera. But that doesn't help the pics of the past...a great loss! I suppose though if I had my own scanner, I would spend all my spare time (which sadly I have too much of, if you haven't noticed) having lots of fun with it! Oh the joys of not having money for all the toys you want!
"The love of the Lord endures."
The T-wolves just won game #2 vs. the Kings! That's exciting. I hope they do well in this series.
I'm glad people are coming here and enjoying my pics. You gotta leave a note and let me know you have been here! I wish I had more pics, but in case you didn't catch on to this...I had hundreds and hundreds of pics on a couple of CD's and on my computer. Well, I brought the CD's on a road trip and they got lost. And at the same time my hard drive crashed and we were not able to save very many of the pics. So I don't have quite so many left and I don't know how thrilled I am at sitting down and scanning them all again. All the reason to consider buying a digital camera. But that doesn't help the pics of the past...a great loss! I suppose though if I had my own scanner, I would spend all my spare time (which sadly I have too much of, if you haven't noticed) having lots of fun with it! Oh the joys of not having money for all the toys you want!
"The love of the Lord endures."
Friday, May 07, 2004
3rd entry!
Well, I don't think any of you can actually tell how much I have been able to do with this site....I tell ya, it was practically nothing when I started. Now, I have added comments, links, edited those links, changed the font and that's all because I have discovered that HTML is relatively simple. I'm still not a computer nerd, but I am excited about how expandedly smart I am getting. I hope that you guys check in often so that you can keep up with changes and details of my life and such...and just keep in touch!
I hate to dwell on the non-important things of life, but as I mentioned I would cry at Friends last night, I'm bringing that up. You all can tell me your thoughts on the show's ending. Now, I haven't actually set my VCR to tape anything in years, but yesterday I taped Entertainment Tonight about Friends, the hour long prelude special, the finale itself, the Tonight Show with the cast and today, Oprah with the cast. I think as long as there is still room left on the tape, I will fit in any other special on the show. So, by now, do you realize I am a fan? :) The Finale itself wasn't that great...just a tear-jerking memorable show. Won't top my fave episode when Ross and Rachel are "on a break" and they each sit by the phone while you hear U2's "With or Without You" and cry over the fact that you want them to make up! Yes, I am a sap, therefore I bawled over the Ross and Rachel ending and thought it was one of the most romantic things EVER! I was going to be SOoooo mad if it didn't end that way! Hahahaha!- because TV matters that much to me!
A blogging idea site says to talk about the last time you said "I love you". My answer to that is probably that I said "I love you" to "my Emily" on the phone on Wednesday night. I miss that girl.....cliche...yes, but people need to say "I love you" more, and not take that love for granted.
Peace....it's time to watch an old Friends on channel 5.... :-D
"Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You." Psalm 63:3
I hate to dwell on the non-important things of life, but as I mentioned I would cry at Friends last night, I'm bringing that up. You all can tell me your thoughts on the show's ending. Now, I haven't actually set my VCR to tape anything in years, but yesterday I taped Entertainment Tonight about Friends, the hour long prelude special, the finale itself, the Tonight Show with the cast and today, Oprah with the cast. I think as long as there is still room left on the tape, I will fit in any other special on the show. So, by now, do you realize I am a fan? :) The Finale itself wasn't that great...just a tear-jerking memorable show. Won't top my fave episode when Ross and Rachel are "on a break" and they each sit by the phone while you hear U2's "With or Without You" and cry over the fact that you want them to make up! Yes, I am a sap, therefore I bawled over the Ross and Rachel ending and thought it was one of the most romantic things EVER! I was going to be SOoooo mad if it didn't end that way! Hahahaha!- because TV matters that much to me!
A blogging idea site says to talk about the last time you said "I love you". My answer to that is probably that I said "I love you" to "my Emily" on the phone on Wednesday night. I miss that girl.....cliche...yes, but people need to say "I love you" more, and not take that love for granted.
Peace....it's time to watch an old Friends on channel 5.... :-D
"Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You." Psalm 63:3
Thursday, May 06, 2004
learning...
so the sad thing about my "I don't know squat about HTML" blog is that there is no way to add a "comments" thing...cuz that would be really fun. so maybe I will ask one of my nerdy friends about that and they can be really cool and type something in there for me like that. In the meantime, if you have something to say in reply, you will just have to IM me (yograciela on AIM and gods_princess5@hotmail.com on MSN) or email at the same hotmail. :)
I'm devoted to F-R-I-E-N-D-S tonight. Anyone want to cry with me?
PEACE!
I'm devoted to F-R-I-E-N-D-S tonight. Anyone want to cry with me?
PEACE!
Let's start at the beginning...a very good place to start...:)....??? I don't know!
WELCOME! I guess I have just joined the world of computer geek bloggers! Or something like that. I only say that though, because in reality, the only people whose blogs I read or that I know have one, are indeed computer science majors who have these insanely high tech jobs in which they use their knowledge of acronyms and codes and stuff that I can never keep straight nor do I have the slightest idea what the majority of them all mean. So I'm far from their world, but in a sense joining it, or something. The thing is is that I enjoy reading about their lives. And I have for awhile, so some time into it I thought it would be fun to do. Well, I didn't know if I wanted to broadcast things on the world wide web for everyone to read. But at the same time, I've been wishing I would be more disciplined or motivated to write in a journal or diary because I know how invaluable that is. Being the computer addict that I am, I thought about just typing something on it anyway for myself. I don't know...I finally just did this because well....it's an outlet. We all have things that we just need to let out...to communicate...ya know!? So this is just one opportunity....and here's my start...with a reflection on recent weeks....
It's spring. And that means a lot of different things for a lot of different people. It means graduation, moving, a new job, travel....for all of us, an anticipation of summer, for different reasons. Most of us are just glad for the busy stress of school life to be put on hold for three months. For me, it means anticipation of another exciting summer at Big Sandy Camp....just a whole 'nother exciting pace of life. For several...especially as become evident for this year in the past few weeks...ENGAGEMENT! I know that more of you out there are extremely sick of hearing about your friends getting engaged. Many people wonder, "well, when is it my turn." For me, it's "grrr, I JUST CAN'T make it to all of these weddings!" And maybe I will share more about that later. As for today, I'm looking at it with a new perspective. For weeks I have been hearing this news....spring has been happy. But within the last 24 hours...I have talked to a young girl contemplating suicide and not had the words to say that would get through her head to change her mind and found out that she went to the hospital last night after taking pills...I talked to a friend who was facing the same situation with another young girl who has been cutting herself....it makes me wonder what has happened to our youth...I read about a friend who fell off a ladder, I read about a friend who is sad about her grandpa who just died. Just like that, joy is replaced by pain. Life throws these things at you left and right. Good and bad, back and forth. No wonder people go insane in this world. It's always a matter of how we feel by what happens and how those feelings affect what happens. It allows me to be thankful in the fact that I know that the Lord Jesus is my rock and always will be. The joy of the Lord is my strength. But those things are not true for all people and for some, it's not true all the time- the knowledge and faith of it, that is. And that's when my heart is broken. Well....I don't have a point to all of this really, it's just something I'm thinking about.
Here's to the start of the Lightsnack's blogs!
Peace!
It's spring. And that means a lot of different things for a lot of different people. It means graduation, moving, a new job, travel....for all of us, an anticipation of summer, for different reasons. Most of us are just glad for the busy stress of school life to be put on hold for three months. For me, it means anticipation of another exciting summer at Big Sandy Camp....just a whole 'nother exciting pace of life. For several...especially as become evident for this year in the past few weeks...ENGAGEMENT! I know that more of you out there are extremely sick of hearing about your friends getting engaged. Many people wonder, "well, when is it my turn." For me, it's "grrr, I JUST CAN'T make it to all of these weddings!" And maybe I will share more about that later. As for today, I'm looking at it with a new perspective. For weeks I have been hearing this news....spring has been happy. But within the last 24 hours...I have talked to a young girl contemplating suicide and not had the words to say that would get through her head to change her mind and found out that she went to the hospital last night after taking pills...I talked to a friend who was facing the same situation with another young girl who has been cutting herself....it makes me wonder what has happened to our youth...I read about a friend who fell off a ladder, I read about a friend who is sad about her grandpa who just died. Just like that, joy is replaced by pain. Life throws these things at you left and right. Good and bad, back and forth. No wonder people go insane in this world. It's always a matter of how we feel by what happens and how those feelings affect what happens. It allows me to be thankful in the fact that I know that the Lord Jesus is my rock and always will be. The joy of the Lord is my strength. But those things are not true for all people and for some, it's not true all the time- the knowledge and faith of it, that is. And that's when my heart is broken. Well....I don't have a point to all of this really, it's just something I'm thinking about.
Here's to the start of the Lightsnack's blogs!
Peace!
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